Thanksgiving 2008

I had a wife, a home and some friends. Then, I got sick. First my head went, then my soul. After those were used up, I crashed and burned. Now, in the rebuilding stages of my life I still feel the same as I did then, sometimes worse. I have lost someone I love and I am still finding it hard to let go. I do not want anyone’s sympathy, I just want me back. Therefore, when I feel like shit and want to crawl in a dark place during the holiday season, let me. It is the only way I know how to heal. In addition to that, I cannot be in a group of people all day when all I want to do is cry nonstop. So let me stare off into the empty nothingness that is my soul, this is what I will be thankful for on this Thanksgiving Day.